yx's destiny

2010-01-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

dunno wds wrong w my room man!!! things just disappear lidat. first my camera then now my IC!!!! argh! feels like the screnario in Cecelia Ahern's There's no place like here. i m waiting to see wds goin to disappear nxt. my bear? or my bed? nb.

tt day i went to see my company doc cos i gt back ache. i gt back ache since ages lah, just tt cos its company doc, i dont need to pay a cent so i went for some medical advice. the stupid doc made me go for x ray then refer me to hospital. nvm, i tot that was all. but the doctor at the hospital make me go for MRI scan in the huge machine like wd they do to robots in the movies. make me go for pysio n gave me heaps of medicine. i just feel i had cancer instead of backache. each visit to the hospital takes up like half a day. i dunno how many more appointments i have man. nxt visit i will just tell him i feel damn fit, no pain at all. ohhh n the doc said i shld swim 4 times a wk, hello!! thrs only 7 days in a wk no? or i just look too free

2010-01-10T01:08:00.000-08:00

only one day in japan and i already miss the food in sg. i miss katong laksa, yummy!!i have only nissin, laksa flavour here w mee. i m figuring out how to use my blackberry phone. abit too high tech for me. i dont even know hoe to search for contacts, its saved in a strange way. like yi xian, became xian, yi. wtf!!!! i dotn even know if i log on msn, will i be charged. i'm paying for balckberry services, but wth is that? feeling so sleepy, probably cos i'm full of slp debt. many many nights of studying ceha and playing spider web at west coast, kh's wedding etc. oh speaking abt kh's wedding. our gate crashing is so successful lah. we collected so much ang bao $ and we made the guys puke. but those old pple dont like us doin such things. gt some aunty tell me nxt time we will get worse. so rude hor. but nvm lah, wds done is done. hoho. ladies, nxt time blend the bittergourd, it taste worse than eating it raw.

2009-12-27T08:50:00.000-08:00

hohoho, i thought what suden change in attitude, asking me if i m in sg or nt? scali ask me to check out some rubbish in japan. KNS. to think he know me well enough tt i dont like checking out stuff for pple. what's more are we tt close???? hello!! i gt no other fucknig business to talk abt except when it comes to money or revenge. i'm so enjoying my xmas mood, spoiler! my new year resolution is to steer clear of potential retards and pamper myself like i only live till tomorrow. i wanna learn as many shit in the world so i woodent die stupid. i wanna get lasic so when i roll my eyes, its clear enough to get the hint to fuck off!

2009-12-25T23:25:00.000-08:00

i just came back from amsterdam. it's sooooo nice but dammn cold lah. thr's snow. i went to the flea market, to the zoo. the zoo's amazing. i get to ice skate outdoors!! there's an aquarium and a reptile room, white wolf, hairy camel. oh and who says peacock cant fly!!! anyways i went to catch a stand up comedy, v similar to 'whos tagline is this?' soooo funny. of course tgt with x mas dinner and booze. and of course i bought myself heaps of presents from h&m. super sale!! yay, i'm comin bk to singapore. i miss the food so much. i wanna eat steamboat and chilli crab. i can feeel drool. MERRY XMAS! let me think abt my resolutions for new yr =)

2009-12-12T21:25:00.000-08:00

first, i need to grumble. I CANT FIND MY CAMERA!!! it's nt even 1 mth old and its missing already. i last seen it at home but now its in lost world. strange. but then my brother has a lame theory which i gt no choice but to listen: when you dont need it, it will appear. cow!

dunno wd shit i ate last night, but i gt rashes this morning. nvm. today's my first motorcycle practical lesson and i m seriously excited. i put on foundation to cover the rashes, go for first lesson. after some time i perspire and the foundation smerged. fucking irritating and ugly lor. i was struggling thru the lesson. clutch n gear cannot co-ordinate. foot brake n hand brake cannot co-ordinate. i tend to brake like i'm on a bicycle - hard. then end up falling many many times. and the bike is damn heavy lahhhh. end of lesson, the instructor announced tt i failed, must try again. so embarrassing!!! but it's fun. i prolly spend more than i spent learning class 3. the helmet is rly quite smelly ar. i think i must get my own one. heeee! so exciting.

Oh i went to the aquarium in Osaka. it's soooo huge lah. the whale shark is soooo big, so cute!!! there's puffer fish also, octopus, turtle, penguins. and we get to touch the stingray and baby sharks. so nice!! and after tt trip, i decide to learn diving!! then my fren told me its actually nt expensive. 400 plus to get a license and its sooo fun. maybe in march, i'll go sign up. so exciting!!!!!

2009-12-05T21:27:00.001-08:00

i just came bk from stand chart run. it's only 10km but i feel like goin to bed for a long long nap. before the race ade and i was saying we should try sun down. at least get a finisher t shirt. once in a lifttime experience etc after 1km, we said we should start up slowly. we should go for 21km first before experiencing 42km. after 2km we lost track of each other. then at the ending line. we met up again. we told each other 10km is enough lah..anyways just for fun lah. i think nxt event will be shape run for ladies. i like running with ladies, easier to keep pace. ok enough of nonsence, i need to nap.

2009-12-04T23:15:00.001-08:00

This month is such a meaningful month. Kaihui's wedding commin up and i m one of the sisters. so exciting, cant help thinking of how to sarbo her husband. all the girlie stuff to prepare and nice dresses to buy or borrow. weeee!

CEHA. i finally went to enrol. exams comin up in January. i'm so damn hardworking now lah. last minute studying and mugging. wdever, i hope to pass so my mom woondent nag at me.

then!!!! i cut my hair really short. so i need nt tie them up at work. the last time i had short hair was in sec2 and i rmb pple saying i look like a boy. oh well, i kinda like it. =) saves shampoo.

ok the ultimate news..... i enrolled for motorcycle course. i m goin to learn and get a license. heeee. crazy right. i did it all secretly. when i coodent hold the excitement, then i told my mom. it's too late for her to scold me, so she accepted it. she still say she'll buy me a helmet if a pass. wheeeee!!!!!! Merry xmas to me!!!!

and Siaoying's comin bk. all good stuff happens at the same time. hee!

2009-11-28T09:50:00.000-08:00

i just came bk from new york. didnt know Thanksgiving was sucha huge occasion. all shops closed except walmart. if only i arrived the day after Thanksgiving, its called Black Friday. they have sales so huge tt everyone goes shopping at 4am, some earlier. all shops were having sales. so nice to be living in USA. all the festive sales, end of season sale. yummy shoppings!! oh and on Thanksgiving itself there's this massive macy's balloon parade. all the large scale balloons and moving platforms. it's like the enlarged version of chingay. too bad i only see it on TV, if only i head down to manhattan.

Anyways i gt my schedule for Dec:
6th: Standard Chartered Run (erm walk)
8th: Ground Duty
10th-12th: Osaka
16th-17th: Narita
21st to 27th: Amsterdam

i was hoping for a NYC before Xmas. Get some pressies for everyone (and myself)

2009-11-17T23:39:00.000-08:00

time to recharged my body cells. back from china and japan. first stop was xiamen-quan zhou. it's some ulu non-tourist attraction but we were there cos my dad wanna pray. we went to some hui-an's region whr the people are dressed lidat. they have metal belts to symbolised married and black belts to show tt the lady is still single. the scarf-looking thingy is to shield fr sun and sand.

shanghai. we went to this place called the shanghai's old street. they have the famous temple thr and the long queue of xiao long bao. i was expecting so much fr tt xiao long bao but it turned out to suck. over-rated. thr's starbucks in tt area too. i rmb reading how it was a bug issue cos starbucks' nt supposed to be in tt traditional heritage.

this guy is damn good with his poems. we only gave him my dad's name and my mom's name and he can form a whole 5 lines poem about family. genious! just for fun, i bought a squarish stone pendant tt has my name on it. only 6 buck. but i woodent dare wear it ard. too or biang.

we also went to watch the acrobats in shanghai. they were rly good man. a 1 hours 45 min show, totally worth it. be it the man or women, their bones were so soft and flexible. pratically every one seems to be able tfold themselves up and fit in a box. scary.

this is the tour guide in hang zhou. we went to the famous xi-hu. its nice to hear the tour guide telling all sorts of story such as how the dong-po meat come about. we also went to the silk factory. everything feels so smooth and nice. i wanted so much to get a bedsheet set with quilt and quilt cover. so comfy but super ex lah. so i ended up getting nighties instead. damn loser. lol we also went to this longjing tea place. its called china's premium tea cos the emporer drank this. but it tasted quite good lah.

Suzhou - this is the bell in han san shi. nth special..but we went to this shi zi lin (the lion forest garden). it has this man made maze that follows' zhu ge liang's ba gua configuration. took ages fro us to get out of tt maze. i realised i m sounding v china chinese. wtf.

we also went to this tea pot factory. their pot can float on water one. i'm amazed. wdever it is, we bought one set for momento.

oh and then nxt thing the tour guide brought us to this temple. North something. it's rly a cheat.

Please recognise this outlook of the temple. there's a 9storey pagoda behind. here's the story. we were all told brought to the monks for some guidance or wdever fucking nonsense lah. then the monk ask if we would like to offer some joss sticks. we said ok lor. then he say it cost RMB390 (S$80) then my dad jus said we dont have so much cash cos we need to reserve them for subsequent days. guess wd's the monk's reply?? "oh i understand. in that case u can use credit card" wtf!~ might as well ask me to do internet transfer from singapore. then nvm, when we wanna make tt payment, they say they only accept chiina's credit card. in the end we just make a donation and nv come bk. in the same tour grp, there's this guy who made the payment and when he wanna draw some cash at the train station, he realised they have exhausted his account. v ke lian right? this fucking monks making use of god to make money. fuckers. pple goin suzhou must take note.

WUXI - i like wuxi alot. its way cleaner but way colder. its like 10 deg. i cant even hold the camera well. at this place we took less than 20 pics in total. we went to this pearl factory. so nice. my vain parents bought some pearl cream for their face cos the person told them its for anti-ageing and blemish. roll eyes*

but from suzhou to wuxi, the tour guide made us take the train. fuck. we had like 4 lugguages and all freaking heavy. thats the problem with approacing small agencies. overall its good experience. after tt we went to japan already. my parents hate the confusing railway and generally spending $ there is nt to our advantage. too high currency exchange. we went yokohama (china town), tokyo tower, ueno's ameyoko street, akihabara for my canon IXy510, the red light district street in shinjuku ( we went in the day lah so nt much to see)

2009-10-31T23:09:00.000-07:00

i just completed the 10km marathon. feels so tired but at the same time quite shiok. i didnt stop eh, cant believe myself. hee. should be 60 plus minutes. after the run, ade and i were so stinky. ended up goin shopping for stuff like deoderant, powder, clothes and wdever. all just bcos we didnt bring any bag. thrs one more CAAS run comin up but that one is free so no harm joining in the fun.

last few days were quite bz, suddenly gt called up for work in the midst of movie with jancy. sssry jan, gt to leave u alone in the theatre but i know that movie must be good. sucks that i have to miss it after the 10th minute. wtf right. ssssry huilin, supposed to celebrate ur bday then and its the only day u r free in that mth. we'll have smmth as make up. sarah too, didnt hhave something proper apart fr some melted mud pie (literally mud).

i'm so tired now, i m desperate for a nap.

LTRS!

2009-10-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

Nov will be a damn busy month for me man.
1st - Great Eastern Women's run
4th to 7th - Japan
8th to 17th - China and Japan holiday
18th to 19th - Japan
23rd to 30th - New York

I'm so looking forward to the china trip man. i bought air tickets for 3 person. singapore to japan to xiamen to shanghai to japan to singapore and it only cost $1K. 3 person ehhhhh. feel so happy, my hardwork is worthwhile after all. Hee!! finally i can bring my parents overseas, feel so like a gd daughter. but actually its me who wanna tour ard lah. gt to book all the tours and hotels and bus tickets and do some research, print maps. etc. yay!

2009-10-21T19:01:00.000-07:00

i caught 2 movies ytd and both sucks. the first one was 500 days of summer. sounds so romantic and shit right. but it turned out to be this loser guy living in his own world waiting for this girl called summer. in the end she married another guy. ending: he moved on and get to know this girl called autumn. cant belive thrs pple saying its a nt-bad movie. anws, the other one was sorority rows - i know its a show featuring senior bitches etc. its supposed to be a thriller. yes it was thrilling, but the story line sucks. its all supposed to be between this grp of girls. how 1 of them was killed cos of a prank and in the end one by one gt killed. the grp of girls went bk to the site whr they disposed the body but coodent find any. ending: killer was one of this girl's bf who coodent stand the sisterhood thingy. feels neglected and killed all of them to have his gf solely to himself. super no link. he wasnt even at the site whr the prank was held. craps.

anyways i had my japanese course and at the end of it thr was a test. i think i m a gonna. i thought i was well-prepared BUT i coodent catch any shit during the listening. nvm, that was only like 20%. for the written test, i forgot all the connectors and when to use what. damn. i know tml when i go to work, i will hear some nagging. argh! irritating. oh but i m kinda looking forward to know nxt mth's schedule =) i hope i get to go to ams or nyc.

2009-10-12T14:33:00.001-07:00

just came back from new york; another round of retail therapy. feels so shiok to spend money all on myself. my best buy was a abercrombie hoodie, looks sooooo awesome. feels so awesome! dangerous place man. i bought boots..wooo winter's comin! if i get a chance to be in new york this xmas, i will go ice skating. they have this outdoor place whr the ground is frozen hard. so cool right. and i cant wait to go china and japan with my parents =) i have always wanna bring them overseas and finally i did it. feels like all that i've endured in my work paid off. mummy's so excited lah. hasnt been to japan before and kept calling her frens to talk abt it. so cute to see her so excited. after this trip i have to work very hard already cos i've exhausted all my annual leave. arghs. if only we have like 29 days instead. haha. time rly flies man. it's goin to be end of this yr soon. time to reset resolutions (nt tt i fulfill any thou).

2009-10-02T09:36:00.000-07:00

i'm nt done. whr was i? kenting. yeah we went to play water sports, than we gt muscle ache after that. after tt was a long drive back to have dinner with sylvia's parents and then more shopping. by then we gt abit sian abt ye shi already. next day, we're back at taipei. we went guess*3. the celebrities were rly gd. No NGs. unlike sin. anways, after that we went to xi men ding. it was rainging, and i kept slipping cos my crocs wore off already. =( last day, we went to Taipei 101. it used to be the world's tallest, now overtaken by shanghai's. thats the end of the trip. tiring and broke but i think i'll be back nxt yr to visit more mountains and lakes and shopping!

2009-10-02T08:55:00.000-07:00

i'm back from TW. actually 3 days ago. we went shi da ye shi the very first night. all the food and shopping just makes u go crazy. i had quite a bit of retail therapy. i think i gt enough clothes for xmas and new yr man. and they're nt expensive. reasonable for the fashion. better quality than thailand. cheaper then singapore. food is better than our pasar malam. weather is damn hot lahhhhh. hotter than singapore. i gt tanned, tan lines sucks. i gt watch line, show line, shorts line. and i did apply sun block. anyways, nxt day, we went to ceramics museum and also san xia lao jie. the crossiant-look-alike is so awesome lahhh. saliva drips. On the third day, we went to dan shui. it's supposed to be very nice in the night. thr's this lover's bridge (quite famous). we wanted to chill out abit but then because thr isnt musch time, we took a boat back to some lao jie. ltr part of the day, we went hot spring. it's rly HOT spring, no joke. just 2 min, you feel giddy already. but good experience =) we went shilin ye shi in the eveing. it's quite disappointing. not as big as we thought. overcroweded. fashion not as nice. moreoever, the police kept coming, so the stall owners had to shift their stalls every now and then. at night we went clubbing, their dancers are quite hot one. no wonder, guys in singapore like to go TW. next day, we went to national palace museum and then we went to nei wan (a hakka village that is near Hsing ju) we had some famous hakka food. i love the dumpling. yum yum! then we took a high speed rail to Chia-yi to meet our long-lost TW fren. then it's more food and shopping. Day 5, we went to this place called zhang hua that has nice food / snacks. at night we had seafood with sylvia's parents and then we went KTV. nxt day, we're on our way to kenting. it's like a 3 hrs drive. along the way we stopped at this coffee place that is sooooo relaxing, we also went to this place called the mao pi tou (tip of the cat's nose) the wind up thr is so huge. everyone's hair is all over the place. the ming su in kenting is soooo pretty. our rooms are so cute, all decorated with sea themes. and so colourful. we went to the ye shi in kenting then after we went to see the light house, and this place whr fire burns fr the ground. thr's natural gas emerging fr the ground, so the ground is burning all the time. we were thr when its drizzling but the fire is still visible.

2009-09-20T07:27:00.000-07:00

i m goin taiwan in less than 24hrs but i d0nt feel thrilled anymore. i m drowned with some disappointment, some edgyness, some hurt, some stupidity, some heaviness, some darkness, some heartache and a huge lump of fuck-up. i m still amazed how fast pple can change. today i watch some jacky wu's show and someone said: even if u share the same bed with a men, long enough for 3 blankets to be torned, you'll still not understand him. i think thr's some truth in tt statement lah huh. i think i m quite a loser eh.. everyone moves on so fast and i m always harping on the past. if only i m cool enough, get a rebound, or a few rebounds. i see ade moving on well, no longer talking abt tt jerk. i see zen changing like 4 gfs and still nv look back at all. is it that when i get older, i get less decisive and lesss receptive to changes? i think i have concluded tt i m nt cut off to be in a relationship and i think its gd to refrain lah. it's nt a nice feeling to be hurt. taiwan taiwan, i m goin with a couple and i think i prolly feel more alone than ever. i wish i get to fly on xmas then i need nt be alone in sg, i wish i get to fly on chinese new yr, cos thats valentines day. in all fairness, i nv regret any decisions that i've made so far.

2009-09-18T11:56:00.000-07:00

today today... i went out for a mini class gathering..erm 1/4 class. anyways its nice to meet up and know that all of them are doin well. esp yihern man. look at tt doctor's hammer!! then after thhat i hang out with my usual lovely clique when my mood starts to slides. all along i think facebook is a kaypo network and full of gossips and its just any other network, today i finally realised it contains more info than i can ever expected. the whole world knows he's attached already except me. it's depressing to know that i have trusted another wrong guy, someone whom i feel no trust issues with. now i realised wd it means when he once told me: bu yao zhe yang xiang xing wo. how dumb can i be. pple really changes i guess. all along he made me respect him alot, being independent and respectful towards women. today i rly slapped myself real hard. can u imagine all these scandalising has been goin on while i m resting in my bloody nest!! it's amazing to get attached again in such a short time, unless stuff already went on for quite some time. anyways i just feel dumb lah. thank you so much for this lesson.

2009-09-12T16:42:00.000-07:00

wow!!i just came back from chicago. been awhile since i pamper myself. hee! i went to the sears towers; they changed it name to smth which i cant rmb. anyway how cool is tt 103 storey building!! chicago means wild onions, can u believe it! i wanted to go water tower and also millenium park but thr isnt time. anyways, its a gd experience. but tiring lah. 12 hrs flt man.

2009-09-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

these days, i m feeling very gloomy. i dont know why. although i had mj sessions, movies la di da but i feel very unhappy eh. i'm here in japan and goin to chicargo tml. but i m so nt looking forward. but then again i dont wannna sit at home and have zero income. it's been a long time since i go thru mood swings, m i menopausing... i hope twn can cheer me up abit, with all the fermented tofu, xxl chicken, mango ice la di da. actually thinkiing of the food is still nt motivating.. wds wrong w me? i brought sylvia's yoga loop with me on this trip. if i m too bored, prolly i will entertain myself with it. ehhh but sylvia, the CD is so imitationg can. apart fr the clip that teaches me how to use the loop, thr's many clips XXX rated ok!! did you get the loop fr some backstreet YE SHI!! argh, wait till i m happier tthen blog.

2009-08-31T02:27:00.000-07:00

i just came bk from new york. i m now in japan. japan's having typhoon. i almost coulnt land in tokyo, gt to divert to osaka but gd thing pilot is skilled. i m safe and sound in tokyo. oh i m so clumsy man. on the way to new york, i splattered some red wine on my shirt. gd thing i gt another one. so fresh and clean, i flew back fr new york. guess wd! i spilled like a whole chunk of red wine on my shirt again. now i gt no more shirt to change and i gt one more sector to cover back to singapore. red wine sucks. i regret nt buying this cleanser fr home fix. its like a spray thingy that remove stains. it can remove chilli stains so i guess red wine shld do too. i miss playing mj. hee. its so boring here in japan especially when you didnt bring enough cash.

2009-08-17T10:31:00.000-07:00

been a rly long time since i last blog, until someone told me to update my blog (lol) i m sicked of myself complaining all day thats y i stopped blogging for a while.

i've shifted to gombak already, no more living in jurong. it's near the mrt, so i guess it shld be convenient =) and the best thing is i've gt a bigger room and a queen bed. no longer need to feel like i m too fat for the bed. haha.

oh and ytd i went for the safra marathon, although its only 10km but its my longest run this life!!! and i completed it! i was so tempted to escape the run when i bypass suntec man. i also signed up for 10km great eastern ladies run and 10km standard chartered. it's damn ex lah!! i didnt know running ccan be so ex, irritating! but it's so nice to run on the road as if i m a vehicle.haha!

and i'm goin taiwan in sep!!! my dearest sylvia has planned the best itinenary ever. we gt shopping, kenting park, clubbing (ladies night - free some more), hsing ju, all the night streets and tkts for jacky wu's show!! but bcos of the dumb flooding, we cant go ali-shan anymore. it's ok =) it's gonna be 9 fun days.

i also wanna bring my parents abroad for a holiday. maybe i'll bring them to china this nov. i'm still checking out the places and prices. i've only gt like 8 days of annual leave left and goin to china for 8 days is too little. i wanna go shanghai, my dad wanna go xiamen to pray and maybe we can cover one more place. heehee so excited!!! got to save hard already! i hope i gt more flights these few mths.

what else did i leave out...oh i watched the jack neo's movie alr - where gt ghost. it sucks lor!!! total waste of money. the story line sucks. the jokes are so lame and not funny. his productions are getting fr bad to worse. but 3-d UP is nice; sweet little fairy tale. anyways i think the upcoming final destination shld be gd.

2009-06-25T04:10:00.001-07:00

finally i got to log in here. havent been blogging for a bit cos i almost forgot my password and also my home lappy doesnt allow me to log in. but i gt a new lappy!! Lenovo S10-2. mini and white and good enough=) i'm in japan now, thou i rly dont feel like flying. i feel v lonely actually =( and tomorrow there's some dumb shit test on flight knowledge. if i fail, i may be terminated. sounds like gd news right, but then i woodent have a job. and my company is so mean. i have to be tested on business class work which i havent even practise before!!! althou i look very clever (haha) but i m not!!!!!!! fuck it lah, i m goin to huntum thru that 12 hours flight to amsterdam and then huntum again back another 12 hours to japan. wish me gd luck!!! i'm glad to see aza change company but still happy working with the same job. if only i can be more contented. the only motivation is money but its nt as if i earn a lot ah!!! thou i admit i have a lot of time to rot at home. sooooo free until i took up safra half marathon. sounds like a joke right, i m some one who doesnt run since sec 4 napha test. anyways i m goin taiwan this sep, hopefully this is a big motivation. ...actually i haent gt mood for anything, i eel v depress like all the time, m i goin thru early mid life crisis?? argh!!! happy things. i just turned older. big hugs and thanks for those who celebrated with me and those who sent their wishes. glad to meet up w my sec sch clique (been a long time) and also jing and aza (thanks for the present .heee) my family, nv fail to have dinner tgt =) LZ, thou it's half a day, better than nothing and i do feel bad tt u spent so much money. that harddisk tt doesnt look very appealing is actually very useful (i already watched 2 sets of drama with tt) Ade, always my bestie..(i'll standby on ur bday too) oh and rjc peeps! still keeping my bday in your compnay database. thanks for the steam boat and all the board games that's beyond my intelligence level. alright, i'll complain more after i finish the bloody amsterdam flight. take good care everyone, H1N1 is spreading fast, thou my stupid compnay doesnt give a shit and i m nt allowed to wear mask onboard!!

2009-03-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

oooh, been more than a mth since i last post. somtimes, you just feel so sicked and tired that you cant be bothered to even switch on the com to blog. i guess i felt quite shitty bout some stuff...i cant rly rmb actually.. anyways

my company didnt mention anything bout my cart incident, so i guess no news means good news.

i took another attempt of driving on 3rd mar and... i passed! (pat on my head)

wd else...liverpool won man u; nt important but man u deserve some taste of shit

hmmmm...i still do get zap on flights by seniors, but i cant be bothered complaining anymore. kinda get used to it and i've accepted it as part of my job scope. i'm getting lesser, much lesser flights next mth. good and bad. good cos i see lesser of zappers, bad cos i will have a similar pay to that of those blangahs in jurong. that also means i'll be damnn free and always open to mahjong =)

ever since i gt into thiis job, i've been seeing so little of my friends...=( that's wd i dislike but 1 more year till bond ends.

i'm typing rather randomly with wdever that comes to my mind. someone once told me that i'm rather crude on my blog and it's scary to read me spatter my bloody language all over. i thought thru and read thru. true enough, they sounded rather unfiltered-through-the-big-brain but this is my blog and i just wanna let my thoughts and emotions out. as we get older, there's not many outlets,, i realised. i can no longer huug mummy and cry. she'll think i'm possessed.

happy things. i'm planning to go taipei for hols and visit my good old girl friiend there, i miss her so much. she can crap as much as me!! hopefully, nth goes wrong. no further change of plans.

wd else is happy?? tell me happy stuff, spread some happiness over. oh, ee ping's baby girl is turning 1 mth soon. congrats!

if youu tell me 500 jap crews are being retrenched, i'll be more than happy!!

kaihui's getting married.congrats babe!

oh that day in hotel i watched this show called "whose line is this?" omg, it's so damn funny. it's a pity i cant catch shows regularly. i also caught "beauty and the geeks". y didnt sg have such shows, boring place. or shows that pair fat ladies with hunky cute guys...lidat i'll have a chance to participate. nvm me, i'm just entertaining myself. oh and this show; american's best dog. it's sooooo nice, dogs are such loving animals. maybe i should get a dog, train myself to be patient, in return i get loyalty and love. forget it.

movie (without the 's') review; i manage to catch the horror movie; coming soon. please dont watch if u havent. the story line sucks and the ghost is gross, digging people's eyes all the time. yucks. and i think i'm getting older and my heart's getting weaker. i felt kinda scared watching it.

2009-02-18T06:26:00.000-08:00

everything's so screwed up right now. Am, i'm sry ididnt send u off at the airppot cos i'm on stupid standby. 2 days ago, i went to learn driving, weather wasfucking hot and i thought i can enjoy some aircon while driving. but the fucking aircon broke down. LIM BOON SENG gt the cheek to let me driving in such fucking condition. i was perspiring damn badly. i rly stink. night before i asked LIM BOON SENG if i can learn for 1.5 hrr instead of 2 and he said evt hasbeen arranged and cannot be changed. fucker!! he knows the car's faulty and he still insist i suffer 2 hrs!! i checked out his name, passing rate is 38%. so every 3, 2 gt to fail.

that day on flight my cart burst out while taking off butno pax hurt. another jap crew did a DOUBLE CK and told me it's ok. but now tt tthe cart came out, it seemed like i'm taking full blame. i was to rreport early at jpn and explain wd happened. when i gt bk to sg, i haveto stay 2 hrs in the office writig report. tt day was vaalentine. i was totally in a fucking bad mood.NVM!!! when i told all was over. i gt a call fr office saying i was to report to explain the incident again, not in SG office but in Jpn office!!!! which means i have to take a plane over to explain and then take a plane bk!!!!!!!!!! i always thought my boss is fair, but it seemed otherwise and tt nationality of pple rly cannot be trusted. dont ever work in a J co. you'll regret being in such cuulture. i have to depart tml night and arrive night after. which means i have no slp for one whole night, f*. if possible, i'll send sy and nadine off at airport. hope evt goes well.

i'm in extremely shitty mood. i rly feeel likecrying. i'm vv short tempered. fucking irritating!!!!! they rly build mountains out of mouldhhills. wd's the pt of double ck!! y nt blame the other jap as well. it's rly unfair. i've grown to rly hate Js. i'm sry makoto, cant stand your type of pple.

2009-02-06T15:49:00.000-08:00

i just came arrived ytd night. it's freaking tiring, nt the job but the people. bloody Js, they rly sucked big time!! all they wither bloody know is to act amateur and retarded and leave all the shit for me or boss people ard and do the minimal work. i think they all have very rich acting talents that they bloody always put into practise. my cart accidentally bumped into a passenger's leg and the shit J crew saw and she can still bloody smile. then later she report me to the in-charge and apologise and act like she bloody care abt his leg alot. that passenger is drunk and sleeping and she wake him up just to make him even more agitated. bitch! it's been only months on flight and i alr hate the Js so much. Aza, you better think 4x abt wanting to come into this COMPANY. stupid co. is making a loss because they hired too many of these highly-PAID, USELESS SHIT. if you havent seen a 2-headed snake, you can come to this co. cos 98% of all the Js are, see how they back-stabbed each other and still talk like they are best of friends. oh well, as much as i have enough of theire shit, i still got another flight in 2 days. i havent gt time for myself =( and SY! i havent seen you since tt long ago dinner and you're leaving sn. Nadine too! and so many friends i havent been in touch. oh btw, my class alr gt 3 people who left the job and FYI bond is only due march of 2010!! 2 of them are too rich so they paid 10k. another plot a please-sack-me plan and got her wish! so clever right! stupid Js, brains prolly affected by the post effect of atomic bombs. i can so predict at most 4 left when bond is due. wd an irony. people tried so hard to get in just to try to hard to get out. Aza, think 5x!

2009-01-01T06:21:00.000-08:00

heeeeyeeee! been a while since i blog, not in the mood to. very normal life that i led since. anyways, i'm here again to share my schedule again

2nd to 8th narita, newyork
9th to 11th genting (private trip)
20th to 27th nagoya narita

how's everyone's xmas and new year???

my xmas was a lonely one and a very bankrupt one. i shopped like i rly did have a companion and spent like a bomb. anyways, good thing i m back for the new year. i went scalet for dinner, a romanticc one.. winky*

and i took my driving on 31st. guess wd!!!!!!!!! i failed. i mount curb and gt myself 22 points. looks like i m fated to be chauferred ard my by daily bus captain.

gotta study for japanese test and i rly hope i dont faill.

2008-12-03T07:32:00.000-08:00

i went to the sex musuem in Amsterdam, EUR 3 only, and it's like 3 storeys high. i went to their red light district too, but i didnt dare snap any pics. they have hookers posing at the windows in their lingerie..

2008-12-03T07:30:00.000-08:00

i love the houses in Amsterdam, looks so cosy...

2008-12-03T07:28:00.000-08:00

windmill in Amsterdam

2008-12-03T07:25:00.000-08:00

shoe factory in Amsterdam

2008-12-03T07:18:00.000-08:00

Japan & Hanoi (4thNov - 10th Nov)
Osaka (17thNov - 19th Nov)
Japan & New York (23th Nov- 29th Nov)

2008-12-01T09:25:00.000-08:00

i'll put up my schedule tomorrow or day after, when i m less whine-y

2008-12-01T09:04:00.001-08:00

i've just gotten back from Narita and Amsterdam and i'm supposed to share how wonderful Amsterdam was; the architectures, the museums, the weather, the windmills, the cheese factory, the caramel biscuits and also how lonely i was, goin to the zoo alone....but i'm nt in the mood, i justwanna groan and complain, i'm just feeling down. i've no idea was it cos i've been tried to adapt to lonely lifestyle or bcos i just feel lost in life or i'm just too demanding. i hate it, i hate myself =( i've been spending alot whenever i shop alone and been eating alot whenever i m in hotel alone and i guess, it's all subconsciousness that makes me forget the loneliness. i'm nt an inndependent person actually, but i've always forced myself to learn to one. whenever i touch down in SG, i seeked and demand warmth from my love ones, i take long long comfort in my smelly bed and refuse to get up. i dont know y, but i tend to lose my cool easily here. i dont know was it the fucking humid weather or was it the over-populated-with-foreigners-and-PR environment that's making me pissed 24/7 or was it bcos i had to be so humble and patient in the air that i had to explode when i land. i feel guilty when i flare at my love ones and sometimes i know i m over-doing =( i'm sry, i just cant ctrl myself well...feels like i m back in the days of puberty whereby i get emo like thru out the yr. i havent been eating properly actually, living on cup noodles and junky snacks. it's a hasle to eat out alone and many times, it's nt ez to get proper food, nt to mention the fucking high living cost in other countries. i went to the zoo alone in Japan and i kinda envy the animals, they've a boring life, but at least simple and not demanding. they need nt study or work or put on a mask in front of different people. or maybe they're feeling worse, no one even know if they're feeling emo and no one even notice if they cry. =( gloomy days and depressing times. i'm just so negative, i need some booze!

2008-11-17T12:28:00.000-08:00

I just came back from a solo, it's prettytough when there's loads thats so unsure of and i got to goout alone, eat alone, shop alone, figure out the way to and fro... i'm an idiot man, i got on the wrong bus in Osaka. it was a tour bus, good thing its a taiwanese grp, they went like "ni shi xin lai de ma, zhe mo mei kan guo ni ah?" damn embarrassing! oh well, i'll get used to it.

how's my aza? i hopeyou feel better=)
jing, everything getting better?
am and sy, thanks for dropping the card for me. come back soon=)

i've been saying i wanna use this to upload my schedule but i havent start doing so. when nxt mth's roster is out, i'll do it.

abt driving, i've been thru 7 lessons alr, but i'm still driving as if it's daytona. dontknow how i can survive the test end of the yr. i've gt like a mth or so more...i'll try harder.

propnex propnex...i'm still slow at it. like taking my own sweet time. i feel bad for my mentor, i m making him feel like i m totally not serious and just waiting for him to ask me to leave. looks like i m taking up a bit to much for the time i've gt to spaare... i'll work something out, ihope.

my body clock is totally screwed wiith all the odd flight times and jet lags. its 0441 and i'm still typing this with a fresh mind. thr's driving at 1030 ltr, i hope i dont scratch the bumper again(i did so, in the circuit somemore.. embarrassing)

2008-11-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

haven been blogging for a looooooooooonnnnggggg long time man, been having training in japan. this is my classmates. the chubby guy in white is our bus ddriver, he looks like pool bear ar. he gt tt stitch for us to fight over. very nice chap! i gt huge loads of photos in jpn, but very hard to upload everything man. i'll justt narate, so visualise neh.

besides trainingg, my life revolves in the dormitory. cosy place. my very own room.

i only went out during the wkends, usually just sat, then sun i slp in.i went Harajuku, this teens place, a bit oof cosplay here n thr. i also went Disneyland, not very impressive. it's nt as huge as we all imagined. if thr'ss a chance, i m goin to try the one in LA. hmmm, i went to watch the sumo wrestling, that one is worth it. interesting! but i can only afford the tickets like damn far away from the arena, but its still good. the sumos rly look intimidating man. i was so afraid they'll accidentally crush my foot when taking picture beside them.

right now, it's training (practical), it's ending in 4 days, good luck to me! it's tiring man. hopefully it's just initial stage. hee

btw, i m typing this in new york. it's halloween ytd and pple rly dressed up and go treat or trick! so fun right. in SG, we'll prolly see such sight on Chinggay.

my dear friends, sry i've been occupied for so long, i'll try to catch up w u guys one by one yeah.

i always have trouble sleeping, no idea is it jet lag or it's me..i need some aromatherapy man.

alright, friends studying, good luckk for exams. working people; work's work=)

2008-08-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

dearestssss

this is prolly gonna be my last post; i'll be away for 6 wks or maybe even longer. thou currently, i'm dreading it but i guess in time to come, i'll find wdever i go thru satisfying. i NEVER leave home for tt long before, i have no idea wd m i heading for man. thr's no turning back. i'll miss my bed, my teddy bear, complaining in my blog (cos i dun think thr's freakin any internet connection), i think i'll miss home, i'll miss nasi ayam penyet, i'll miss singlish, english, mandarin, hokkien and maybe even tamil, anything but japanese.

i'm nt done with my packing and i alr have excess baggage. FREAK! i nv brought so many text bk with me b4. in poly days, i dont think i ever purchase more than 5 texts. i miss poly days, it's so freakin slack yet it's nt ez to fail. and poly projects, it's so fun to keng and do impromtu presentations and pon classes for roti prata. and i miss school holidays, OMG!!!! i don't think i'll ever smell "holiday".

Am, you're right bout humans. we take for granted again and again. i'm guilty of that!

i think i've been thinking too much abt how much i dun want my life to be screwed up yet i'm doing nth constructive. i guess i need to be more focus man. if only i have 48 hrs a day and if only i'll nv feel tired. i think more like if i can ever stop complaining and get things done. i feel damn irritated with myself; i'll go on and on complaining inside and sitting at a spot doing nth. fucking retarded!

alrights, i guess i need to get on with packing and studying (friends in aussie, just do your best, you can nv read all the text in the library or get full marks for every tests. just try your best! gambatte!). till then, take care =)

2008-08-16T02:41:00.000-07:00

LOL! i'm so dumb; i only realised that i can actually upload a photo on my daily postings (...)

i kept wondering if i'm making my time tick too quickly (weihong said tt actually) and because of that i took for granted the lil' wonderful stuff ard me and what if in the end i'm still not happy?

the past one mth, i havent got time for myself. something tt i actually miss. i miss chatting on the phone. right now, i cant use my phone most of the time man. i miss idle time and sleeping in again when my alarm rings. Oh! and i miss movies. ytd i gt to catch one, thou the show's nt fantastic, but the feeling of relaxing in a cinema is soooooooo gd.

i'll be going japan next wk but i'll be back soon =) take care my friends, thou i looked like i MIA all the time, but i do think of all of you too.

"you'll only miss something when you lose it"

finally I got some time for a breather

2008-08-09T09:38:00.000-07:00

heys!! it's nice seeing you girls tag on my blog. i removed it from my msn cos i'm not allowed to blog actually.

anyway, it's been a helluva week man. I've been up late studying and studying and studying and finally i got to have a good 2 days to breathe and i foresee next wk to be the same. time rly passed fast. soon, i'm goin to travel and i do hope it's going to be smooth and enjoyable.

few days ago b4 i actually doze off, it strucked me that we broke up for a mth alr. it felt longer than that. is it because it's rly hard to move on? or i'm just goin thru a lot at work? or was it because i'm too busy everyday that it feels like i've spent more of my life? anyway, it's time to look forward to better stuff.

yet again, i need to complain bout the "low income, high expenses" shittery. it's rly suffocating!!! argh! i want to get over this period soon....

i feel like i've neglected many ard me...sry! Nadine, how have u been doing in SYD? SY and Am, is school ok? weather should be better, not so cold anymore right? 4/1 peeps, i miss you guys man.. Aza how's your Silkair interview? Jing, y r u using ur ex's acc?!! it's not gonna end.. i wish to catch up with everyone and i'll. patience!

i haven't got the energy to update my schedule. i'll soon. dying to have a gd gd rest.

it's nice to know today is saturday

2008-07-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

finally it's another wkend... it's quite a drag goin training on wkdays, esp when i havent gt enough rest the night before. but i guess it's a transition and i think i'll cope well.

everyone has their own agenda to meet and my good friends are disappearing abroad. first it was SY and soon Nadine!! argh! come back quick, i'll miss you.

i miss school days where we have get-togethers in chalets or bbq sessions, i miss the priviledge of being a kiddo and escaping from reality, i miss school holidays and exam breaks and pockey money..

ok, time to wake up to reality!

tue 22jul

2008-07-22T05:14:00.000-07:00

i'm feelining pretty exhausted only after a wk plus.. how long can i go on??? and with tt pathetic amount of allowances, i doubt i can even support my basic liability =( it's depressing to grow up and freaking need to answer to myself. day in day out i must motivate myself bcos i dont feel satisfied monetarily and spiritually. maybe it's just a transition stage and after that i'll be enjoying every single day..maybe they'll introduce some better shit..gambatte! in some little corner of my mind, i miss JRC. i miss being a tyrant in the office and miss complaining for the sake of complaining to my beloved boss.. =(

"what doesnt kill only makes you stronger"

10 promises to my dog

2008-07-20T01:30:00.000-07:00

i'm so glad to catch my movie - 10 promises to my dog.

1.promise to play with me
2.promise to trust me
3.if i disobey, i have my reasons
4.you have friends and school, i only have you
5.nv to be angry at each other
6.i have only 10 years to live, so let's cherish every single day
there's 4 more but i can't rmb...

very quite sad as reviewed. thou i don't have a dog, but i can still feel the sense of loss... anyways, cyborg girl or something lidat is coming up and i'll catch tt too! OH AND thanks nadine! it's so last min yet you didnt fail me =) thou it's a sinful shopping trip, but i think those barangs will come in rly handy. i didn't know being a girl requires so much attention, especially my dumb face. gonna miss hanging out when you return to aussie.

i've been rly bz and havent seen my friends for like a wk, for a moment i thought i'll lose them all. besties are always besties. Thanks adeline, thanks nadine.

19th july

2008-07-19T07:42:00.001-07:00

it's mummy's birthday. nth special, she's still as grouchy and naggy but at least she loves the cake i bought. Happy birthday mummmy!

i was reading memyselfmine.blogspot.com, the gf of the officer that passed away in Brunei and it's rly v v v v v sad... i can't help but cried. they were together for 4 years and he left her lidat. She's really strong, able to go to work as usual and hang out with friends as usual. if i were her, i would be be on leave crying at home. i hope she'll be fine soon. life's rly unpredictable =(

finally it's the wkend

2008-07-18T10:10:00.000-07:00

it's been a really hectic week, rushing from one extreme place to another and really having very little rest. i'll try to cope well. thou shitty, i feel that this will make me stronger and prolly depend less on guys.

(thou busy, i still miss you. i don't know what you're thinking, maybe something bad but i can say you'll still be thought of.)

dearest SY, you better take gd care of yourself. it's gonna be worse if you fall sick in aust and still need to struggle with work. take vitamin C man!!! i've learnt to do that and it helps.

i do feel bad turning down my dearest friends bcos i'm rly worn out by the hectic week. Promise i'll adapt and we can meet up as usual k? pls be patient with me.

oh! and i've revised my calendar with nt-so-obvious icons, i'll explain if necessary but not here (blog)

moanday bluessssssss

2008-07-14T08:02:00.000-07:00

Now i understand how the mang-ka-lis feel when they are forced to listen to mandarin or anything apart fr their language. It's soooooooooooo stressful learning learning to speak an alien language and to be judged and graded. Kill me. Ohayo gozaimasu douzo yoroshiku onegai itashimasu (ETC) hellooooooooooooo!!

Maybe it's just me, bumming too long at home or that i've left sch too long and my brain's a lil malfunctioning. Alright, i'll try harder.

All i can say, all my friends are right; work rly takes my mind off shit...

sunny sunday

2008-07-13T06:40:00.001-07:00

it's nice hanging out with the club regardless at serenic botanical gardenS. Gardens with the S! it's nice to hear Commonwealth sec band playing again, thou they doesnt sound like a gold class band anymore. lol

i'm looking forward to more cheapo but rly quality-time-spent outings =) oh and the next taboo game, i'll try to get to know bill gates' affairs better. lol

Alright, it's gonna be work tml.

shit of the day

2008-07-10T06:06:00.000-07:00

i chance upon a quote tt Nadine wrote for her bf. It says something like "to love is to risk being hurt..." looks like it takes hell lot of courage to be in love.

i'm recovering from a supposed-to-not-hurt break-up and this sets the record of the shortest lived. or am i supposed to take it tt nothing happen and it's not even a phrase in my life?

time and again, i got myself the biggest image of a bitch, switching bf as often as taxes rises in SG, BUT i don't have such rotten intention =( this sucks...

i'm serious abt him to begin with and i'm more than willing to give it another shot and adapt slowly to his style but he gave up and great! it's over!

i'm gonna be bz anyway when work starts and that'll prolly cover up for all the shittiness that i'm feeling...

Back from Hatyai

2008-07-07T10:45:00.000-07:00

I just got back from Hatyai. Fun or not, i don't wish to comment. But it was quite an eye-opening experience, seeing how disgusting men can be, hooking up teenagers. Oh well...

anyway, i do feel bad spending quite a bit of his money and i know he doesnt enjoy the trip. i can only say we're on the rocks and i'm supposed to be living on tenterhooks but come on, it's happening so often that i think i'm immune to such lovey heartbreaks. haha

I think it's time to look forward to my Japan trip and many others =)

I'm in love

2008-07-01T19:59:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i miss someone and it's a very nice sensation =) i really like him a lot; he's easy to be with, i'm totally myself - no restrictions at all, it's all trust. it's nice to be pampered, to be looked after, drove around and every single day longing to find out a lil' more bout him..

Tml i'm going Thailand with a group of friends, including him and i'm looking forward to spendin time together, away from his work.

my darling friends who objected a lil', i'm sure you'll be happy for me so long i'm happy right?

thank you SY

2008-06-27T23:22:00.001-07:00

Ytd I was supposed to meet up with Jing and Aza ONLY. SY then came up from behind and really SURPRISED me. I love you SY, it's so nice to have you back. Jing's sweet to keep this surprise for more than a month =) If only Am is back as well, miss her.

blog created after 500 years

2008-06-27T23:17:00.000-07:00

hey darlings, i know you guys must be amazed to see this! I decide i need to be connnected to your dairies and I would love to share my daily news with you too.